New feelings
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New feelings

New feelings
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I’m writing this as I complete my last full week at my current job. I’ve shared this change on my private social media, and I will share more detail publicly soon.

With this change, I’m feeling plenty. One thought that’s bubbling to the surface now is how much identity I’ve loaded into being a lawyer. I am good at what I do. I have learned to be good at what I do, building on iterative knowledge. I’m most proud of how I’ve become a better communicator, more sure in what I say, how I say it, and when to say it.

There’s real value there. It didn’t just happen, of course.

One thing I’m appreciating now is the accretive nature of hard work. Hard work on any one project rarely feels like a big accomplishment because it’s certain to be followed by more projects. There’s little time for reflection on the conveyor belt line.

What I can see only now as I step into something new is that my work—my focus—on those smaller things was building to something bigger.

The brilliant thing is I’ve never felt more detached from the prestige or accolade of my chosen profession. I am blissfully removed.

What does that mean? I don’t know yet. I’m probably most happy about that.

What comes next is uncertain but almost certainly rewarding. It’s a risk my younger self was not ready to take. But I’ve grown since then.